Curiosity And The Cat

Has anyone ever done this? Just curious...........

You make pictures up in your mind of the way you would like things to be.

As futile as this is, as emotionally devastating as this can be, you still do it.

Then you form an emotional attachment to those pictures matching the world around you.

When they don't match, you get hurt or upset as if the world owed you the making in reality of the pictures only you know about.

You have expectations that the world 'should' adapt itself to making the pictures that only you know about, into your personal reality.

You then keep on asking the world to provide you with many things, and many specific things, that not only it does not have, but that only you know about, and only you want.

Then, when life, your life, does not 'look' the way you want it to, depression sets in, and anger, and all manner of negative emotions roiling against the way it does look.

Out of this upset, you also refuse to look at the way it actually is, with an eye to ignoring the many beautiful things that appear to you in your life, that you resist enjoying, because your attention is fully occupied looking at all the places where 'the world' does not look the way you want it to look.

Even knowing that the world really doesn't owe you anything, let alone owes you working to make pictures you have made up in your mind that only you know about, into the lived reality of your life. The world does not owe you that, nor does it owe you anything at all.

Your attachment is yours and yours alone.

Your upset is also yours and yours alone.

The pictures you make up in your mind, and align your feelings of attachment to them working out in no other way than the way you see them in your mind, are also yours and yours alone. Again, no one else knows about them but you.

Then, out of things not working out 'your way' you state that life is unfair. That it is unfair, even though the way it works is exactly the same for everyone on Earth. Exactly.

Then the gossip starts, the communications to others about what others have 'done to you' because they did not do what you expected them to do, even though they knew nothing about the pictures in your head.

You even look around at other people's lives, seeing them smiling or appearing to be having a great time, then assume and incorrectly, that this is the way it is for them all the time. It is not. No more than you smiling and having a good time, and then taking a photograph of your smile and sharing it with the world, is the way your life is all the time. At times, for everyone, but not all the time for anyone.

You even assume you 'know' that other's lives are 'better' than yours, when you have absolutely and without question, no idea how their lives are, how they feel, and what pictures they have set in their minds just as you have set your own pictures in your mind, that have not worked out for either of you. No idea whatsoever.

You then absolve yourself of responsibility for these ways of being, by justifying your upset over adopting them with all the reasons why things haven't worked out the way you have wanted them to work out. Then, given your attitude, you cannot understand why you are unhappy and upset all the time. Full of frustration and anger at 'the way things are.' Then it really happens. You surround yourself with others who feel the same way as you do, a literal gossip circle going over these unfulfilled events that have no reality other than what you have made up in your mind, never ceasing to get tired of communicating over, and over, and over, again, how life has screwed you over. Never seeing through whose prodigious efforts, who is actually doing the screwing, all the while thoroughly not enjoying it. If this is not you, great. If it is you, now you know. Love and Light, Tom.